Friday, April 22, 2011

Friendship= fear. Apparently.

I have to admit, my life has been pretty stress-free when it comes to the friend department. As it should be. Friends are there to hang out with, giggle with, go out with. NOT compete with. Nor be in fear of.

Let me back up. I had been friends w/ someone in the past. We'll call them Z. I am not friends with Z now. I have no reaon to be. Z's take on friendship is "who will give me the most attenion? who will do whatever I ask?" Because I gave up being on Z's schedule and bowing down to them, Z decided I was not worth their time. Ya know what? I'm perfectly fine with it. I made the last contact, congratulating Z on a very exciting time in their life, but since I did not go running to them when they thought I should, Z has not reciprocated in contact. And because of this I have not had to worry if I'm on their shit-list for the week, or the "I'm not talking to you until someone else pisses me off" list.

I am still friends and acquaintances (sp?) with people that are still "friends" with Z. I recently just heard that 2 of them (we'll call them M & N) are having, well, basically an affair. M & N have found they have a lot in common and have a ton of fun together so they meet up and hang out, unbeknownst to Z. They have promised not to tell Z that they have this knew friendship because they don't want Z to become mad & jealous. WTF!? Are you kidding!? You consider Z a friend if they are not even letting you be friends w/ whoever you want? You're 20-something years old!!! Get a handle on your own life!

After hearing this shocking news, I then found out another hysterical story. Z and some friends were out drinking one night. Z went home early to tend to some business. A "friend" needed a ride home because they had been drinking so they asked Z's significant other for a ride home. It was then decided that this would not be told to Z because they didn't want Z accusing them of doing anything together. Again, wtf!?

Z obviuosly has trust issues and feels the need to be the center of attention all the time. I really feel that Z has no actual friends, as they all seem to live in fear...fear of being kicked to the curb and having to crawl back on hands and knees to beg for forgivness (for nothing done wrong!)

There is an event coming up in Z's life that should be exciting and fun for everyone involved, but I feel that all of Z's friends are going to be working overtime to be on their best behavior so they don't get "kicked out" rathen than enjoying it as they should.

These friends need to stand up for themselves, together if needed, to show that the way they are being treated is not the correct way a friend should be treated. I was too scared to call Z out on this and decided the best way for me to go was to just stop contact. It worked for me and I'm fine with it, but because it was only me, Z will never realize that she is the problem. If Z loses all friends then maybe Z will realize that they are the problem and need to change the way they are treating their friends. Only when Z realizes that they are the problem and chooses to fix the ways, will Z have friends. Real friends.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

High School Drama

So, as I mentioned before, I got a new job. Well, same type of job, different place.

I was in the library at an elementary school. It was nice. Quiet. Crafty. Very relaxed. At the end of the school year I was told I'd be working in that same library part time- 3.5 hours a day. So not cool, but at least I would still be working partially. Fast forward through a whole summer of sitting on the beach and sub-consciously stressing about not having health insurance or enough money to pay bills and BAM! 1 week before we are supposed to report to Opening Day at Columbia I get a call form Administration. "Congratulations! You are back to full time!" Woo-Hoo!!! "You will be moved into Columbia." Ummmm. "As a secretary for an Assistant Principle." Sh*t.

Let's take a step back and look at the big picture. Elementary School. High School. Library. AP Office. Books. Discipline. Children that pick their nose and giggle. Children that drop the 'F' bomb at you (and still pick their nose). I'm seeing a TAD bit of a difference between the 2 jobs.

And BOY, am I right!!!! The job here at the high school is so much more fast-paced and exhausting! I am constantly doing something (or procrastinating, lol). The days fly by, which is actually quite nice.

The amount of drama these high school students get themselves involved in is nuts. It causes so many problems that have nothing to do with actual school. And the parents have no control over their children anymore- it's disgusting. All I hear is complaints from the children or the parents or the teachers here. Nobody does anything for themselves and no one is motivated.

The conversation up here is much more interesting than talking to 1st graders. I've learned some very interesting things about how children are growing up nowadays. I've taken a few problem children under my wing and I think I'm doing an ok job of keeping them out of too much trouble. Well, at least instead of causing problems in the lunchroom they sit in here with me.

I'll admit, I am scared of some of the students. Especially after they throw chairs and yell and swear and slam doors. (We got rid of that one- phew). But there are some students that are def involved in drugs and god knows what they would do if they can't get their fix. I can picture some in future harming people or themselves. It's very sad, and there really is no one to help them because it's all mental.

Once again, it's budget time and of course Nagle (who is pregnant btw- poor kid that will be...) wants a raise, so people will lose their jobs again. I'm prepared to be told that I'm down to part time again. And I'm also prepared to be in a different school next year, doing a different job again. I'm telling the kids here to not expect to see me here next year and they can't comprehend why move me again to:
have me learn a new job after I've spent the entire past year learning to do this one
2) have another person teach me how to do whatever new job I'm placed in
have my boss now teach someone new this job
have the students try to bond w/ someone new next year who may not get along as well

Our high school students can see that moving people and cutting people is stupid- but Administration can't.... GRRRRR!!!!

I haven't been too vocal to Dave about how I feel about this all again. I'm sure I'll have a breakdown at some point. I've asked him to look into getting on the same health insurance even though we're not married because that is one of my biggest concerns. So I'm sure the next time I bring it up, there might be a little melt down about everything again...

Monday, March 21, 2011

Woah! It has def been a long time, huh?! Sorry about got really crazy. Would you like an update? Of course you would, other wise you wouldn't be reading this, huh?

Soooooo, I finished out my summer in Maine. It was fabulous and sunny and I didn't want to come back. But I did. To a new life basically. New job, new place of residence, new friends.

About a week before I was to depart Maine, I got a call from EGCSD telling me I was re-instated to fulltime!!! Yay! But I would be re-located. Boo. To the high school. Shit. I was told I'd be a secretary for one of the AP's. Yikes!

I moved out of my studio apt :-( And into The Boy's apt :-) He let me decorate the bathroom. Lol. And Tom Brady was not allowed to come with me. Misty also had to re-locate to Mom & Dad's for awhile. Considering Dave is bothered by cat hair I figured I'd wait until we have at least a 2 bedroom place before the cat is allowed back. I miss her though.

Christin got married! Oh yea, and got pregnant! The wedding was fun and everything went well. Minus the fact that I forgot the ring. Lol. That was amusing...after I figured out how to get the ring before she was asked to place it on Bill's finger. I think it would have been more of a good time if Christin had not been pregnant and I'd been able to drink more. Lol. Che's due in about a week- yikes! Little Kaydence will be joining us.

I got back into teaching at the studio. 1 class on Mondays, 3 on Tuesdays, 2 on Thursdays and 4 competition dances (!). My kids are crazy. I love them. Hehe.

So, to sum everything up:
The job is quite interesting. It's def faster paced then the library was and I like it. I'm glad I'm here. I will def do a separate post on this job because let me tell you- it is VERY interesting. Life living with The Boy is great. We havent had any huge fights when it comes to the living situation. I like being able to see him almost daily (even if our scheds are crazy and I only see him in bed). And I've made a new group of friends basically, thanks to me not being bossed around by others.

I think I'll do some individual posts on different issues so this isn't a 50 page post. Anyway, I have to go mediate one of the kids here- you would not believe the drama in high school (another post, I promise).

Thanks for catching up!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Read it and Weep...or laugh or get mad.

Since I'm spending the entire summer sitting on the beach and reading, I brought a long a few books. Here's the list:

1. Pursuit- K. Robards
2. Water for Elephants- S. Green
3. One Fifth Ave- C. Bushnell
4. Cross- J.Patterson
5. Step on a crack- J.Patterson
6. Judge & Jury- J. Patterson
7. The Rescue- N. Sparks
8. Twenties Girl- S.Kinsella
9. Guy Not Taken- J. Weiner
10. Summer Reading- H.Woltzer
11. Good in Bed- J.Weiner
12. The Usual Rules- J.Maynard
13. A Million Little Pieces- J.Frey
14. Girls in Pants- A.Brashares
15. Queen Beeof Mimosa Beach
16. Granny Dan- D.Steele
17. Naughty Neighbor- J.Evanovich
18. Secrets of a Shoe Addict- B.Harbison
19. Season of the Machete- J.Patterson
20. Dead Girls don't wear diamonds- N.Martin
21. In her Shoes- J.Weiner
22. The Lighthouse- WD James
23. The Beach House- J.Patterson
24. The Saving Graces- P.Gaffney
25. Brian Kelly, Rt. 1- T.Coughlin
26. Lovely Bones- A.Sebold
27. Change of Heart- J.Picoult
28. Keeping Faith- J. Picoult
29. Second Glance- J.Picoult
30. Child Called It- D.Pelzer
31. GLorious Appearing- T.Lehayne
32. Jemima J- J. Green
33. On Green Dolphin Street- S.Faulkes
34. The Cat who went Bananas- L.Braun
35. A heartbreaking work of a staggering genius- D.Eggers
36. Firefly Lane- K.Hannah
37. Foul Play- J. Evanovich
38. 5 days in Summer- K.Pepper
39. Swimming- J.Hershen
40. Multiple Choice- C.Cook
41. Atonement- I.McEwan
42. Summer Affair- E. Hildebrand
43. Message in a Bottle- N. Sparks
44. Last Templar- R. Khoury
45. FOr one more day- M. Albom
46. Eat, Pray, Love- E.Gilbert
47. True Colors- K.Hannah
48. Tweak- N.Sneff
49.Four Blondes- C. Bushnell
50. The Girl w/ the Dragon Tattoo- S. Larsson
51. Anybody out there?- M.Keyes

So the ones in red are the ones I've already read. I'm no where near the amount I had wanted to read at this point, but let me tell you- some of them were WAY harder to get through than I thought.

A Million Little Pieces, for example, the most descriptive I think I've ever read. It was tough to get through!!! (I'll admit, I skipped some of the real gross parts)

Eat, Pray, Love (which I obviously have to read BEFORE I see the move) was a really good book, but that middle section bored me a bit and I really had to concentrate to get through that part. The first section and the 3rd section were awesome and I really enjoyed them.

A Child Called It was an easy read, as in it took me about an hour and 1/2 to get through it. Some disturbing stuff in there as well, but I was able to get through that in one sitting.

Firefly Lane was soooooooooooo good! I laughed, I cried, I got mad. I picked it up at the flea market a couple of weeks ago. Even though it was close to a 500 page book, I flew through it. Kristin Hannah is now on my list of likeable authors, so I've been looking out for her books.

I'm reading The Rescue right now, and hopefully will be done with that by the end of the weekend. I'm sure I'll cry at some point in the book.

There are dozens of other books that I would love to have on my list, but I'm trying to behave and not become obssesed with buying books. My 2 newest additions are the Marian Keyes book and the Dragon Tattoo book. I found a Barnes & Noble gift card in my glove box (yay!) yesterday so I painstakingly (ha!) drove myself to B&N to use it.

I'll keep updating when I've read through books. What are some other good books I might need in my collection?

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

I'm not a tourist, I'm a Seasonal Resident

Well I didn't lie to you. I told you my posts would be sporatic since I'd be sitting on the beach daily. And it has been fabulous. And as you can see I've deemed myself a "Seasonal Resident". I'm not those touristy people that come for a week at a time, I stay the season...the warm season, of course.

Quick run through of what I've been up to, because, well I do actually do a little bit more than sit on the beach.

The dance studio up here has been great. I love the kids. They're so fun and love everything and anything I do with them. I'm getting some great ideas for competition so thats always a plus! Now as long as the kids back home can do what I'm having the kids up here do...:-/

I cheated on Maine.

Yes, it's sad, but true. I vacationed in Cape Cod!

Please, hear me out first. I had to go. The boyfriends parents invited him and I down for a couple of days. Since the studio was off the week, I really had not a damn thing planned so I couldn't say no. We went over on Monday evening and left bright and early Friday. In all honesty, I had a really great time. Their place was steps from the ocean, I mean, I could lie in our bed and see the ocean. That was beyond relaxing itself. Then....I think my most favorite part: an outside shower!!! Just an outside one, no indoor. If it rained, it was like getting a double shower!

The cottage itself was about the size of my studio apt, maybe a tad bigger. Great for a couple, and it was fine for the few days we were there, but I cannot imagine having children there! And if I had been there for a week w/ my parents and sister...there would have been some flare-ups. Overall the trip was great. We got to hang with his parents, they showed me all their vacation places they hold dear to their heart, and I still got to beach it even though I wasnt in Maine! The water WAS warmer, but it was also filled with slippery, slimy seaweed and there were a few crab sightings (and a naked dead sea turtle)! Needless, to say, I went out to my knees once, and then stayed ankle deep.

I got to see the bf interact with his parents for a significant amount of time and he did pretty well. He managed to keep it together...most of the time. There was an instance where someone stole his i-pod...but then they brought it back apparently when they were done with it. Thieves are alot nicer now a days huh? (*ahem*) The Cape's got a completely different feel from York but it was still fun. I'm sure I'll be back there next year.

We headed home on Friday because of my planning a Bachelorette Party. Christin's to be specific. And let me tell you, I am sooooo relieved it went well! I had an awesome time and I think everyone that was involved did! I had us all meet at C's for a few cocktails then we headed out on The Captain JP w/ the Refrigerators! On the boat C had a "To do list" to accomplish throughout the cruise. We all pitched in and helped her get 23 outta 28 things done! It was so much fun. The entire boat knew who we were...including the band and the Captain! Everybody got along, there was no drama and the pictures are priceless:-) Phew- glad that was a success!

I'm now stationed in York for the rest of the summer. There are no plans for me to vacate the state of Maine until August 24th or so. I'm anxiously awaiting July 31st. I know I have Liz and the boys, J&P, and Carrie and Justin up here, but I'm still a lil lonely. July 31st is the arrival date for my parents (for 2 weeks)...Aug 1 my G-rents come up (for 3 weeks)...Aug 6th Sara & the BF come up!!!! (for 1 week)...Aug 7th Aunt Dade & her clan of about a dozen come (for 1 week)...Aug 8th Noel & Cale come (for 3 days). I can't wait to have vacationers up here, since they're on vacation I wont have to worry about them going to work. (Pshhh- work.)

**Gag alert**
And I cannot wait for the bf to be here because I just want to BE with him. Period. (Gag huh?) Spending 5 consecutive days with him last week was awesome. And I know once I go home and move in with him I'll be with him constantly, but I want to be with him NOW. Like Right Now. So the fact that I get to see him again in 16 days makes me giddy with anticipation!

Ok, ok I'm done w/ the mushy gushy stuff. I'll leave the real "pour your heart out" stuff til another blog. I think I should probably do one. All the great bloggers have one, right Whit? ;-)

I think that's all for now. I need to get outside, it's too nice to not be out visiting the ocean. I'll think of all you poor souls that cannot grace the ocean with your presence this summer. And then I'll move on in my thinking process, that now a days is crowded with "where is my life leading me?" questions...Yikes!

Monday, June 14, 2010

The little things

I wish I could video record my life and just put it out there for people to see. I'm not anyone exciting, I don't lead a rock-star life, I don't have big important meetings with influential people, so one would think it's a boring life...but let me tell you. The amount of RA-tarded (thank you Hangover) people that i deal with on a daily basis would make a show of my life quite comical. Now, when I say ra-tarded I don't mean the mentally challenged or w/e they're called now-a-days...I mean the people out there that completely lack all common sense and believe they are always right. Always.

There are those that feel even though they are the school psychologist, they should be able to tell me where I need to be working. Update!: I'm the Library typist. You're a school psychologist (who rewards the bad children- I'm still trying to figure that one out). Guess what!? I'm going to be working in the library today and every other day, so don't waste your breath telling me to go down the hall to be a monitor.

Then there are those whose job title is Principal, and never come out of their office to talk to their staff and when they see a child run the opposite way. I'm sorry, something is wrong with that picture.

There are those that feel even though there's a Library sign up sheet, they don't need to use it. Just because you wear beautiful Cole Haan Mariela Air Sandals that are worth $400, it doesn't mean you can just waltz in and take over the library. (Now if you gave me the shoes it'd be a different story...)

And my favorite today: Those that feel even though the book that their daughter borrowed from the library was damaged, she shouldn't have to pay for it. Let's just keep in mind the daughter decided to color all the pictures in the book AND most of the words, then throw it in the washing machine to wash off the crayon, only to give it back with about 5 pages that you could actually read. 5. Out of 32. My apologies ma'am...How could I even THINK about charging you for such minimal damage?

It's only Monday and this has me quite worried. With the amount of ra-tarded people and issues I put up with today, I can only imagine what's in store for the rest of the week... :-x

How do people that lack all common sense make it in this world!? And why do people put up with them?!?!?

Friday, June 11, 2010

Because I have so much time...

I've decided to start this blog. Well, that's a lie. I don't have that much time. Yet. But I will. And I'll explain. Later. First, let's just thank Whitney for getting me on here. She's the reason that I have found out about blogs. I mean I knew about them and have heard that people blog, but I didn't realize that it can actually be fun and amusing! Whitney's blogs are always appreciated whether they make me laugh (which happens quite often) or cry (I'll admit one did).

I figure this will be a good place to vent, if needed, or just throw my thoughts out there since I know you're all dying to hear them. We'll see how well I keep up with this. Seeing that my life is a bit chaotic, time may be an issue. You're probably thinking that I mean I won't have enough time...Think again. I'll have plenty of time. I don't have a full time job during the summer (well, come September I won't have a f/t job at all, but that's another post...)

Ok, getting back on track- I have the summer off. From June 25- September 1. You guessed it, I work in a school district. Sooooo, since I am not working like normal people, I spend my summers up in Maine on the beach!!! So you see, I have PLENTY of time to keep up with this blog, but what I don't have is the power to sit inside on a beautiful sunny day when there is a big sandy beach a minute down the road. So we will just have to see how many posts I will make during my "oh-so-busy" summer life :-)